The first week of Pisces season had us in deep. Emotions were big and somewhat chaotic, and we might have even felt like we were drowning a bit. The energy came in strong with the solar eclipse last week, and now we can start to feel a little movement.
What moved was fragments and imprints attached to our healing. Also, Chiron in Aires has been pointing to movement through our wounding for some time now. Can we live and function even when we feel raw and vulnerable?
Maybe it’s time to stop placing all the focus on the “healing” and start experiencing the results of what we’ve been working on.
I think we get caught up in “having to be healed” and place too much focus on the inner doing. Let’s put our work into practice and recognizing small points of change rather than looking for one big extravagant show.
We don’t just wake up one day “healed” then start living our lives.
We do the work daily when we catch ourselves in patterns, recognize our behaviors, take accountability, feel our feelings, and make different choices.
“Healing” isn’t always done on a mat or at a practitioner’s office. Sometimes it happens in the car when you’re in traffic, or even when you’re in the bath aisle of Walmart crying on the floor with your toddler (ask me how I know).
Resolution happens when we become aware that something is out of balance. (I say “resolution” because the word “healing” is too broad for me lately. It doesn’t always feel right). Either way, the more we resolve/heal our patterns, beliefs, and behaviors, the more balanced we become.
The balanced feeling then creates a feeling of wholeness — nothing’s missing or out of place. That feeling of wholeness can be equated to “healing”. It’s really the energetic neutrality we’re going for here, not any outward, tangible change (people can’t see your healing anyway).
We don’t have to be healed to go live our lives!
Let me say it again for the folks in the back. You don’t have to be healed to go live your life!!!
In fact, we’re never going to resolve all our shit, so let’s stop trying to make it the biggest priority.
However, we are responsible for how we show up in the world. I’d be willing to bet that if we all acknowledged when we act like children (meaning when our wounds have been activated and our conditioned responses flood to the surface) the word “asshole” would disappear as a way to describe someone.
What we’re being invited into is a perspective where we can hold our wounds, patterns, and perceived flaws, yet still move through life without them running the show. A space that feels safe to own what we’ve decided to carry. And yes, that does come with the “inner work of healing”
We don’t have to spend forever “healing”.
Maybe it’s worth it to spend five hours a day journaling, reflecting, meditating, affirming, manifesting, rewriting your story, reading self help books, working with practitioners, and researching the latest techniques for living a better life when you just start so you can find what works best for you.
Ask yourself, though, are you doing all that because you’re still avoiding something? If you’re saying “I’m healed” but get all bent out of shape when you have to go out in the real world, sorry, but you’re not healed.
And sitting at home “doing the work” is useless if you’re not putting it into practice.
Now it’s time to start showing up as the you that you are today. Healing. Raw. Vulnerable. Willing.
We’ve done the work to search our depths. We’ve hit the bottom time and time again. Dark Nights of the Soul? Wrote the book on it. IDK about you but I’m tired of it all.
While I continue to do the inner work (at what is no longer an overwhelming, overperforming, overachieving level), I’m ready to live. Am I healed? No. But I know enough about myself to pinpoint when my wounds are about to get activated, and I have tools to keep it at bay.
Yes I’ll go back and dive deep again, but now isn’t the time. And one thing we’re not doing this year is forcing anything. If it doesn’t feel right, let it be. Now it’s time to live.
It’s no longer enough to talk about all this. It’s time to show up in the world AS it. To be set free of the cage that “healing” can be, and just exist. Bring it all into the world because that’s how we can recognize what we no longer need. Our experience will reflect it back to us.
These days I know what I’m bringing forward into relationships, both business and personal. I know which wounds are still bleeding. I can, will, and do call myself out when I notice I’m falling back into a pattern. Now, I communicate when something gets activated and an old story takes hold.
Nobody is going to be perfect.
We all carry around our stuff, it’s just that some of us are more aware of what we’re carrying and willing to see how it affects our experience. It shouldn’t stop you from living your life, yet it often does.
Being willing to take the risk to be vulnerable is what sets us free from the cage. It shows us that we’ve grown and can, in fact, handle what life throws our way.
What would happen if you did the thing anyway, not perfectly, not healed, and scared AF?
Let me know in the comments! And if you’d like to resolve some of your BS, book a Subconscious Reset Session here.